I earned a fair few pounds. I put on a fair few pounds also. I worked long hours. I got stressed.
And one day it hit me. This is rubbish. I mean I always knew it was, but one day it properly hit me that the rubbishness of it all was too rubbish to carry on with.
But I didn't do anything about it really.
Until one day it got even more rubbish and I found myself jobless. That bit has all been well documented on here.
So what did I do next? I re-trained as a teacher.
I no longer earn very many pounds. The cakes in the staff room continuously conspire to pile back on the pounds I shed. I work very very long hours, stupidly longer than before. And when I'm not at work, I take my work home with me and I'm still working. Even when I'm not working I'm thinking about work, I don't think the teacher brain ever switches off. I get stressed. Very stressed. And busy.
So what, then, on earth was the point?
What was the point of swapping London, well paid, well vino-d stress for local, dismal paid, no jollies, work-at-the-weekend-every-weekend stress?
That's a question I often wonder about asking myself. I read many articles by people who got into teaching and then leapt straight back out again a year or two later because they couldn't stand it or the workload or the parents or the politics or the stress or or or or.
What is the point?
Here is the point:
The point is, in the middle of a god awful, when will it end, is it nearly half term yet week, the world offers you one of the most beautiful, heart warming, uplifting experiences on a plate, right in the middle of where you work. Just as you're innocently going about your lastminute breaktime photocopying rush. Just as a matter of course because that's what this place is all about, there in the middle of the hall are 30 children all dressed up as pirates and sea creatures with that look on their faces that says they don't know whether to be terrified or excited. And seated all in front of them are another 150 or so children eagerly anticipating what's about to come, shuffling to get the best view, surreptitiously waving to their friend about to perform. And perform they do. As the music builds, they twirl and whirl, they flap and spin, they climb that rigging like that's all they were born to do. And the crowd go wild. There's clapping and bowing and cheering and grinning until our faces ache. Hearts are a fluttering like the flags on the ole pirate ship.
And I think to myself: That. That is the point.